Oh and this is for Caleb, hahaha thought u might wanna see this dude...=D others pls feel free to see it too~! =)
( 9:52 PM )
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for the life i lead
hahah sry for not blogging for so long =|...i cant say tat i have been busy but neither have i been free...but im jus kinda lethargic about blogging recently =( anyways, jus for updates i shall blog today =)
hmmm easter service passed, it was really great! hahah and yes the previous post was the song used in Elliot's scene =D...took me 54 tries to get it rite...and then another 11+ tries editing the video itself but it was all worth while hahha...the cast was great and i had lots of fun watching elliot slam my wallet on the floor, deborah dying like 1000000+ times, marshall burying deborah 1000000+ times, abbygail taking photos of shawn which elliot loves to tease about both of them being together...hahaha and lots of nat yee's constant "will i die if i jump from the 5th floor" thing xDDDD
hmmm school has reopened...which is mostly a bummer cuz im still in a holiday mood but then i cant skip school cuz the guilt will kill me LOL but yea so i jus take naps during lectures =x, BUT ONLY AFTER I COPIED THE NOTES!! hahaha yea...
okok er, i cant remember wad else happened...hmmmm oh rite, i joined the drama ministry in R-AGE...haha enjoyable bunch of ppl to work with srsly xD. and er...oh rite stuck to facebook.com nowadays thx to all the games such as 'MOUSEHUNT' which i finally conformed to...=D it aint half bad bah.
anyways, i kinda realised a half-bad-half-good truth...i no longer am a hardcore gamer =| hahha yea, games jus dont give me tat kick anymore lolololol but i still play them for relaxation though and sometimes for leisure =) haha haiz, i tink i tat im being more and more fickle minded...im always unsure of wad i want, and wad is good or bad for me, i no longer putting on a mask now but neither am i being myself...AHHHHHH see wad i mean by fickle minded?!?! HAHA, anyways i really hope its the school pressure. but its poly! wad pressure!?!? xD oh wells, must be my melancholic side acting up again =|
guess i jus need some laughs and sleep =)
( 9:07 PM )
? Monday, April 06, 2009
Emotionless...
Hey dad im writing to u not to tell u tat i still hate u jus to ask u how u feel and how we fell apart how this fell apart
r u happy out there in this great wide world do u tink about ur sons? do u miss ur little girl? when u lay ur head down how do u sleep at nite? do u even wonder if we're alrite but we're alrite we're alrite
its been a long hard road without u by my side why werent u there all the nites tat we cried u broke my mother's heart u broke ur children for life its not ok but we're alrite i remember the days u were a hero in my eyes but those are jus a long lost memory of mine i spent so many years learning how to survive now im writing jus to let u know im still alive
the days i spent so cold so hungry were full of hate i was so angry the scars run deep inside this tatooed body theres things i'll take to my grave but im ok im ok
its been a long hard road without u by my side why werent u there all the nites tat we cried u broke my mother's heart u broke ur children for life its not ok but we're alrite i remember the days u were a hero in my eyes but those are jus a long lost memory of mine now im writing jus to let u know im still alive im still alive
sometimes i forget and this time i'll admit tat i miss u said i miss u
its been a long hard road without u by my side why werent u there all the nites tat we cried u broke my mother's heart u broke ur children for life its not ok but we're alrite i remember the days u were a hero in my eyes but those are jus a long lost memory of mine and now im writing jus to let u know im still alive
and sometimes i forget and this time i'll admit tat i miss u said i miss u
hey dad...
( 9:55 PM )
? Friday, April 03, 2009
If I Let You Go (by Westlife)
Day after day As time pass away And i just can't get you off my mind Nobody knows I hide it inside I kept on searching But i cant find
The courage to show To letting you know I've never felt so much love before And once again i'm thinking about Taking the easy way out
But if i let you go I will never know What my life would be, holding you close to me Will i ever see, you smiling back at me? How will i know If i let you go
Night after night I hear my self say Why can't this feeling just fade away? There's no one like you Who speaks to my heart Its such a shame We're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask I'm too proud to lose But sooner or later i gotta choose And once again i'm thinking about Taking the easy way out
But if i let you go I will never know What my life would be, holding you close to me Will i ever see, you smiling back at me? How will i know If i let you go
And once again i'm thinking about Taking the easy way out
But if i let you go I will never know What my life would be, holding you close to me Will i ever see, you smiling back at me? How will i know If i let you go
( 6:57 PM )
the Worshipper♥
wassup~
pray and ask from the LORD♥
-Saltshakers are back again THIS year xD
-more grown to God
-to organise a Grace Retreat
-to be able to play the violin fluently
-to be able to _ _ _ _ _ like a pro! (hahah dont wanna tell u yet lehhhhh xD)